LOST

it’s cute how he likes to plan ahead for dates, as if we’re gonna be talking still. i’m not used to be in a stable relationship. i’m used to something always going wrong and breaking up every week. that’s how my last relationship was. 

but it’s so different. a good different. it’s like he doesn’t plan on leaving anytime soon. and he trusts me and doesn’t think anything bad will happen.

my last relationship, it’s like he doubted us lasting. we could never make plans ahead because we didn’t know if we would be together or not. it sucked.

such an unhealthy relationship. 

i don’t regret it. i learned things from it. he taught me how to love. and other things.

it just was that we both were so stubborn and argued a lot. we both always had to be right. and so yeah…

anyway, i think it’s gonna take some time before i get used to this stability. i think he trusts me more than i trust him. cause i always feel like he’s gonna just stop talking to me one day or just get mad at me for something and then be done. but he hasn’t yet. 

maybe he’s good for me. i think i’m falling for him.